I'd always thought that when I'll finally stop being lazy and start writing here again after four months it will be for some extraordinary reason, like my high school graduation night, the first day of college, running for vice president in student council, the awesomeness of CIMP, Broga trip or even just expressing my feelings during some unhappy times. But it all came down to a simple thing and that is love.
Yes, the same cheesy cliche that every song is about. But it's true. What love does to you is amazing, it leaves you dazzled and stunned and electrified. It makes you the happiest in the world and it somehow manages to make you the most miserable one. It makes you lose your independence and it makes you forget whatever plan you had for your future in the past, a time that seems so far away and so worthless and so damn dull before you met them. You just simply can't imagine one day without them and it drives you crazy to be apart. It's quite astonishing, what love does to you. It makes your whole world upside down and it makes you brave, ready to face anything now that you know you have someone for you. It's like magic.
I was the kind of girl who'd laugh at the silly love stories and would find relationships such a waste of time and energy and tears. I believed real love didn't exist, that it's only there in the perfect movies but everybody will find someone compatible enough to get married to and everyone will somehow find a way to bear each other for the rest of their lives as friends after their honeymoon phase is over and the fire dies down... and well those who couldn't, would be divorced. Never ever in my wildest dreams I could see that I'd be such a sucker for love, but it happened to me. It's indescribable, what love does to you. I consider myself very lucky for finding the one at such a young age. If it happened for everyone, the world would be a much better place. :)
He changed me, he made me a better person. He made someone who would sacrifice everything and wouldn't give a damn about herself anymore when it came to him out of the most selfish girl on earth. He made me realize my flaws, and helped me to fix them. He made me see the world with new eyes, and taught me how to be less serious and harsh and to be more loving.
I'm not even sorry for gushing about this overwhelming feeling. It's too powerful, too huge to contain it.
